Sunday, July 29, 2007
I'm damn bored now, I wanna say everything out but I'm keeping in. I'm seriously fed up with everything.
Somehow I wished I didn't fight with my bro , though it wasn't my fault, I would have been talking to him the next day but because he spat at me , that made me feel lower than anything. Sometimes I feel like a burden to this family, I hate it.Its always my fault, cause he's the oldest and you all love him most.Farhan notices that too.
Somehow I don't trust anyone anymore,my best friend just blamed me for everything ? Who would meet someone at 5 in the morning ? Tell me ? You make me sound like I'm the bad one. You're the only one who actually understands me and knows me the most. When your father scolded me , you didn't even hesitate . I also do have feelings . You think the scolding from my mum isn't enough ?
Is this friendship ?
I wanna meet karina , she'll brighten my day (: or maybe shakyna ((: Someone bring joy to my life, I'm seriously living in darkness.
FUCK FUCK FUCK , omg I think I need to smoke. just got the urge. Ha bye
the memories have shattered 3 10:15 PM